Now it's of to the store to get some supplies for new projects and other happy ideas. Yay discount craft stores. Probably the only time I ever like shopping XP
Wow.... So I bought the complete World of Warcraft set, including Lich King. I blame a little skunk for this. That and the buzz around the office. Still installing right now. Server, name, and class soon to come.
I'm not totally sure where the tradition for doing "Zero" entries to a series, the logical step backwards from the first to represent a part of the story that happens before it, came from. Certainly the first prequel that I heard naming itself this way was Ring Zero. The Cube series started off with Cube, then Hypercube when it added an extra dimension, then Cube Zero (which really should have been called Square). I'm sure there are many others. Silent Hill Origins was called Silent Hill Zero in Japan, but they clearly thought that nobody else would get it and they tacked "rigins" onto the title to form the odd hybrid that it eventually ended up with.
The game opens with CB radio speak that might as well be in a foreign language ("20/20, ten pints right. Keep the hens in the henhouse") that introduces Travis, a trucker who rather overoptimistically decides to take a shortcut through Silent Hill in the middle of the night. While a-truckin' down the road he sees a cloaked figure in the mist ahead in much the same way as the first game, slams his brakes on and comes to an emergency stop in an impressively short distance of about a mile and a half. After getting out, he sees nobody there, but when a distressed figure appears in the mirror he flees into Silent Hill, a mistake unmatched by even the most dim-witted protagonists in the series yet. To cut a long story short, he then finds the Gillespie house on fire and saves the smouldering Alessa, starting the events that began the series in the first place.
For some reason I had heard a lot of things about this game that caused me to have low expectations of it. The average score from players on Gamefly was around 6/10, Yahtzee's review of it was fairly scathing (but then, when isn't he), and I had mentioned because of those that when I started playing it I was expecting it to be (quote) a bit rubbish. But I've been pleasantly surprised - for everything that's been said about it, I honestly think that it's the closest to classic Silent Hill that the series has managed to come since the second game. It might be just because I'd been so alienated by the complete departure that was Silent Hill 4, but it's oddly nice to see the familiar things again - having to hunt around darkened buildings (sometimes in a ghastly alternate dimension) with rooms that have been stricken with some sort of Dutch Door Disease, trying to find the rooms you can enter and then working out gradually how to escape in between running away from half-seen apparitions with heads on their bottoms and legs growing out of their ears. Lisa the nurse is back as well, with a new voice actress who's merely sub-par instead of wallbangingly appalling.
A new addition to the gameplay comes in the form of being able to switch between the light and dark dimensions via the use of - and I will probably have this game to thank for playing on and fully awakening another thing I've always found unsettling - mirrors, which show the wrong reflection and will transport you between the worlds when they're touched. This makes the possessed world become more a fact of exploration than something that you're forced into by the plot, and instills a new sense of dread in you, that in order to progress you're going to have to visit it voluntarily. In fact, because of the way that the worlds are now used as part of the general puzzle in this way, with some parts of the scenery being subtly different (for example, you have to knock a key down a drain in the light world and then switch to the dark one to pick it up, because in the dark world the grate on the drain isn't there) I find myself wondering if somebody on the team had played through Trilby's Notes, which itself took an enormous amount of inspiration from the Silent Hill series and used two parallel worlds in this way. It's a nice thought, anyway.
As for things that might have prompted the negative opinions that I've seen... well, it's true that as far as the story goes, Travis doesn't seem to have a whole lot of reason for being in Silent Hill. Unlike other people who were searching for others (or themselves in time paradoxes), he doesn't seem to have quite strong enough a connection to the place to really want to find out what's going on as much as he does - his first objective is to see if Alessa is all right, but at the stage we're at he seems to have forgotten about that and is following clues to seemingly irrelevant places like a demented Treasure Hunt with Anneka Rice. I would certainly have started finding a way out when the second location that the game directed me to was a giant abandoned sanitarium. And some of the combat feels a bit strange - there seems to be an encouragement to use melee weapons like in the fourth game, except those weapons break faster than most of my webpages.
This is offset, though, because as far as inventory management goes, Travis seems to be completely opposite from the dimwitted Henry in the fourth game, who had difficulty carrying more than a couple of playing cards around. Instead, he seems to have a jacket that easily rivals my own, and is able to haul around multiple TV sets, filing cabinets, golf clubs, a couple of hatstands, bottles and sticks of various sizes and still have room left over for a few guns if throwing everything including the kitchen sink at the nightmarish apparitions around him doesn't put them off enough. Ammo is not rare either - in the fourth game you had an irritating choice between clogging up your severely limited inventory space and using weapons that were totally useless, but after experiencing that, not feeling that even the basic pistol is too good to use on anything and has to be saved up is very welcome.
And the part that I pined for in the fourth game: the puzzles are back. No half-hearted sticking cards in marked places on a wall this time - instead you get properly demented ones like having to feed horrible-looking dolls different coloured pills according to what mental disorder they represent to open a desk drawer for some reason and a very Myst-like episode with an iron lung. There isn't a choice between putting them on Dipstick, Normal or Completely Bloody Impossible modes like in the second and third games, so it looks like you only get the one set this time - but what we've seen so far are at just the right level, just difficult enough to make you feel clever about working them out afterwards.
If there's one thing that I think has been wrong with the series for a while it's the bosses, because the games' combat was always awkward by design - it's meant to make you feel like your characters were fragile and really didn't know how to handle weapons. But during fights with large monsters, the result is generally that you had a direct mutually exclusive choice between shooting and trying to run away, meaning that boss fights are exercises in standing still and pounding away while checking your life force every so often (and the stylistic choice of using red-amber-green for your health, only absent from the fourth game, means that I always have to have someone on hand to tell me how my state looks). In this one, movement seems a little more free - at least, I defeated our latest boss just by shooting all the shotgun ammo I'd saved up at it while continually walking backwards - but it still seems like something that could work rather better. I've actually heard that the team doing the next game said that they had replaced the boss fights with things that were more "Zelda-style", which sounds like possibly a good idea but puts strange images into my head of Harry Mason spinning round on the spot madly with the Master Sword.
It is amazing how your outlook changes at a place of employment when you know your time there is terminal. Today I totally "Office Space"d it by parking in the managers VIP spot, re-arranging my cubical, and playing video games / stock market all day.
He then came by to see how I was progressing on finishing up on my project, and I told him I'm too busy today and I'd get to it as soon as I can.
Second degree brown belt So after a year of being out of formal classes of Isshinryu karate, I have made second degree brown belt. I must say it was the hardest rank test I have ever taken so far. First off I just finish learning my kata i needed to know a two weeks before the test was going to be. Before that I had to have some of my last kata's I learned rechecked and corrected in certain areas. But after a long hard push up the stairs I made it back to where I was at before I left maybe a little further a head. I felt more relaxed and felt like my kicks and punches had more power behind them in basics. Then had to do 30 push ups, do all my kata's i know (empty hand and weapons) before having to do Sanchin where I get punched and kicked during it. Then i got a small water break. Which i was needing b y then. I got to rest some during going through stances and self defence. The real work out came when i had to fight a green belt, then two black belts(at their level of fighting)back to back. By then end I was wore out. That night i could barely move, but I knew I did well. Now this is just a prequal before I take my black belt test. I see where I need to be. My next goal will be third degree brown then i take my black belt test.
This time of the year has arrived... Seems my efforts to update LJ as often as possible aren't good enough. A month. Well, you don't have to read it.
I'll just sum up what I did those last weekends.
Herbstcon was great. The new location was terrific, as were food and people. I enjoyed it immensely, and I'm really hoping we can spend the next few years at that wonderful location again. I've gotten bribed with whiskey - I'll make the morning brunch again next year. Good thing I'm not a Panserbjorn.
The following weekend I spent with my lion. I just LOVE the Taunus Therme! I really think we should try to spend time in the sauna more often. We also spent the evening of Halloween together with our friend Susi.
Then: Cologne Furdance! Wheee! That was fun. The weekend was the first in a long time where I considered traveling as being stress. 16 hours in three cars for 8 hours of party. Still - it was worth it. Fursuiting is becoming more and more fun. Had I just known there was a live video feed - I probably wouldn't have made a fool of myself that badly by doing my a-rhythmic movement-stuff in front of a camera for HOURS. Fun fun fun!
Last weekend I spent in Berlin, Lupo visited me, we had some fabulous sushi with Tabalon, Jumpy and Riffuchs at the Tabibito. All in all a very relaxing weekend. I really needed that, too.
The weekdays in between are all much to short. I've seen Bond - or someone like him, only that he doesn't drink Martini, I've started doing something to build up muscles, I've started a new fursuit project, and also seen a few people now and then. There have been some evenings I just spent relaxing, however my workload at the office has reached a very high level, and I have the constant feeling that I'm loosing more and more control, and I'm also in desperate need for a break. I've got 10 days vacation left which I don't know when to take - at the moment - even a business trip seems to make problems - so for now I'm just going to continue hoping that I won't get sick. On the other hand, "indifferent" has been getting more and more of a word that can describe me during office hours. At least that defense mechanism still seems to work.
Haven't heard a thing about my loudspeakers again yet. I'll have to call them next week. And also make that next trip to dhl. Last time I asked where my speaker was, they told me, 6 weeks isn't long enough. (It says to wait two weeks).
But: I've heard something from the workers in my house! They caught me right before leaving this morning, and wanted to start painting - immediately. Well of course that was sort of out of the question, but since I'm on a business trip next week, and I'm having a visitor staying at my place after that, I wouldn't know when to let him in at all. I've been in Berlin a LOT lately - why did thy pick next week, of all weeks. I just don't get how my "luck" works. I know this is blasphemy - but god is an asshole! That had to be said.
Let's see what else happens.
Right now, my mood switches from happy to frustrated and back again in seconds, and sometimes, I just feel so utterly tired...
Oh - Just so no one can say I haven't mentioned it this time: I'll be in Karlsruhe next tuesday afternoon. I'll have to be back at the office at 9pm though.
Going to Chicago Well, I'm off to Chicago on Friday morning. I should land around noon and hopefully make it over to the hotel by 1 or so. I've actually printed out the events list and circled the things I want to go to. I've also labeled a map with events and times, so I won't miss anything that I want to go to. I've got this all planned out and I'm going to be more relaxed than normal.
A lot has been happening in my life recently. I've found myself more busy than before, but I'm very happy. Exciting things are on the horizon.
I can't wait! I'm really excited! I'll see you all there!
Current Location:91711 Current Mood: excited Current Music: Benjamin Britten - Playful Pizzicato
Today at my team leader comes to me today and says the following:
John (Team Leader) : " The boss wants to know how many lines of code your project has..."
I quickly reply: "What the hell does that have to do with anything?"
John: " I know, I know.. But he wants to know."
Me: "Is this another one of his idiotic metric charts that serve no relevant meaning to the rest of society?"
John: "I would assume that is it."
Me: "Sure thing. I'll spend an hour counting the lines."
And that's how my day started.
You can not measure progress by the lines of code you write, but how effective you are in what you write. If the boss wants to calculate my progress by lines of code... Ctrl-C *Hamlet* ... - Ctrl-V > *Into Code*
The homonymy of organs Originally I was a bit peeved over some half-assed English->German translations which had fallen victim to English homonymy, and I'm a little peeved to hear some English native speakers trying to talk about the - contextwise - wrong kind of colon problems in German. I attended a moderately disinteresting presentation for normative grammar fetishists who have yet to learn how to cope with the changeability of language, and that the whining about the growing "degeneration of language" is largely exaggerated, and in many cases is simply untrue. The week before, some Dünkel, bourgeois reactionists (a.k.a. Potatoes) in all sincerity displayed their flabbergastedness over the circumstance that the Kanak Spraak sociolect was no longer limited to immigrant children of low, uneducated social classes, but was also used by - as they said - "13 year old native girls who attend the Gymnasium :(((( ". Murmurs of "that's racist!" could be heard from the desk rows in the lecture hall. I however cannot determine whether these murmurs were a corrective element caused by the "you can't say it that blunt and directly" doctrine of the political correctness hypocrisy, or whether they were really appalled by the supremacist arrogance of the Potatoes.
But let's get back to homonyms because during the "degeneration of language" presentation I was looking for other English homonyms in the field of human anatomy. I didn't have to search much since organ is already homonymous, and I decided to have some fun. This resulted in the following drawings:( Read more... ) The final track of Silence! The Musical, and a musical of the Second Season of 24? " My middle eastern in-law could be a terrerist! Nuclear, nuclear, nuclear, nuclear bomb. I will torture youuuu, so you will tell me things. D: " Oh wow, is that series really that much of a blunt piece of propaganda, that it can be parodised that easily?
Want to be 22-24% before I head off to BCT by the end of next month. This military thing is already changing my fucking life. I know more about food and what to eat, how to eat and where to eat than anything. My recruitors are all rather proud that I'm this dedicated into doing it. Whether its fake or not.. I don't care. They're helping me alot more now than before, and now they're pushing me even further. I -can- take the ARMS test now... But I don't want that. I want to reach the desired bodyfat % and the right weight for BCT. I dont want to struggle and hold everybody back, no.
I'm doing it, for those that are reading. I'm really, really doing it.
Thanks to everybody who is supporting me through this.. Everytime I come back feeling like I'm about to puke it only pushes me to work harder the next day... And just the thought of everybody supporting me the way everybody is pushes me even further. In a way I'm doing this to better myself.. And to make myself that much of a better friend.
I'm glad and happy with myself for the first time in ages. I don't feel miserable. I don't feel weak.. Tired.. Unwilling to do anything.. No. My confidence.. Motivation.. Everything. It's building. Everything is getting there.. The Army should have been my primary choice before anything I tried to do. Nothing comes easy... But it's what I need, people.
It's not about serving the country to me, as much respect as I hold to it. It's finally about serving myself and getting somewhere in life.
Somehow my memory had filed the Ratchet and Clank games - starring as they do a fluffy protagonist and robot sidekick very reminiscent of Gir - as very innocent, which made it a bit of a surprise to be continually reminded of their underlying air of sort of cheerful wrongness. For a start, the third game happens to be called (I promise you) Up Your Arsenal (the European releases, for whatever reason, decided they couldn't call games things like that and they were simply numbered). And throughout the game there's a sort of Futuramaish humour that would show a universe that would really seem quite tragic if it wasn't played for laughs - like the announcements in the background that say "All life forms please report to section B for execution" and (the current highlight) an upbeat sort of Europop song about exterminating everyone. I hadn't actually realized that she was meant to be Britney Spears until much later. Such is my awareness of popular culture.
I also didn't know that the series had grown quite so extensively since the last time I saw it - even though I thought of it as a very new series, it's now over six years old. Once again, time's going past too quickly. Anyway, the games have extended on to the PS3, and they've chosen to call the latest one Quest for Booty. Just as well there are no innuendoish misinterpretations to get out of that, then.
Finally, no matter how validly thematic the title is, I just can't take the new action/horror game from the creators of Half-Life seriously at all if they've chosen to call it Left 4 Dead. Ace.
Haystack Searching Searching for a new job is rather depressing. Senior this, senior that, 5+ years experience, mile long list of obscure technical certifications REQUIRED.
It's really a torn situation of what's more depressing; the job I have, or the list of available jobs.
I want to add a couple of things that I got too late for the last post to the list of birthday acknowledgements - quadralien, who managed to excel himself again by coming up with jewel cases of Alone in the Dark and Quake 2 by hunting around charity shops (I miss doing that in America - there aren't any places that I know of around here where you're likely to find relics like that) and pami_zee, who sent me the softest dressing gown in the world. My parents had also bought me a new leather jacket when they were over - both items of clothing replace two things that I've had for a number of years and, difficult though it was to consign them to the back of the cupboard, I have to admit that my old ones were absolutely falling to pieces. I also happened to receive the latest game in our Gamefly queue that evening, too...
Since I got the recommendation to join Gamefly a few months ago I've been mostly happy with it so far - I'm not sure what the price of 'conventionally' renting a game is now, but I'm sure it was about £5 for three nights when I last went to Blockbusters during the PS1 era. With this online method, you have no rental limits, instead paying a monthly fee to be able to take out one or two games at a time and keep them as long as you're using them. I'm surprised that nobody thought of the idea before, because it makes a whole lot more sense than having to blitz through a rented game by playing it constantly for a couple of days.
The service did had a couple of shortcomings at first - the most obvious was that I found the process very slow, with gaps of just over a week between sending a game and receiving the next in our queue. However, that's been improving over time, especially with their recent introduction of being able to send the next game as soon as the post office confirms that the one you're sending back is in the post rather than on the day that they receive it - that pretty much cuts the waiting time in half.
The other problem is something that's only come up recently, and that's the issue of unplayable discs. A few weeks ago I got out the original Ratchet and Clank because I thought Whitney would like it, it was a success and we then worked our way through the rest of the series. But the disc of the second game that we received wouldn't work at all, sticking at the first loading screen - we sent that one back and got a playable one in its place after a few days. And after moving on to the third one, it sadly had similar problems - the first disc we had wouldn't go past a section where it had to load a cut-scene a few hours in, and after getting a replacement of that one as well, the replacement disc then stuck a couple of hours later (and has left our save game in limbo eternally trying to load a planet that it can't find!)
So I'm not sure if it's just because of the relative popularity of the games compared to what we had out earlier (I noticed the first attempt they sent us of the second one appeared to actually have bite marks in it, as if someone had mistaken it for a really shiny cracker) - I should probably look into cleaning our PS2's lens as well just in case that's the problem, though it doesn't seem to have had any problems when I've been replaying Resident Evil 4 in the meantime.
So we've given up on the Ratchet and Clank series for now and have gone for what I'm going to literally parse as Silent Hill Zerorigins instead. I'm aware that some people think it's a bit rubbish, but it's for the sake of completeness as I liked the others (and that fewer people will have got their grubby fingers on the disc).
4.1 Earthquake Yep, I felt that one. It woke me up.
At 4:35am, I suddenly found myself fully alert and conscious, looking around the room and at the clock. I thought just I felt the whole house vibrate. Was that an earthquake?! Burr was still asleep and I didn't hear any roommates downstairs. I didn't hear much in the way of traffic. I began to wonder if it may have been just me, waking up out of a dream in which I thought I felt an earthquake. I've done that before, but my body has never reacted in such a way that I found myself so awake and alert. I felt like I had reacted to something very real.
I didn't get up and post about it at the time because I wasn't sure. I laid in bed and tried to sense if I could feel any shaking but I could not. I don't know how much of the shaking I may have missed waking up, but to me it was just a quick momentary vibration.
It did feel like what you would expect if someone was coming to bed late. Burrwolf seemed to be sound asleep, though, not even tossing and turning to get comfortable. He was deep asleep and did not wake up, which made me doubt it even more. If it was an earthquake, it'd usually wake him up too, but what did I just react to if it wasn't him?
I know I wasn't dreaming because of how awake a suddenly found myself, like something physically DID just shake the bed. I laid in bed a few moments and thought about it while I sat up and got a drink. It actually did feel like it was more than Burr climbing into bed, I decided. That doesn't normally wake me up if I've been allowed to sleep for a few hours and there's no delayed reaction.
I started to wonder if someone downstairs may have slammed the front door. At 4:35am, though? Usually no one else is up and stirring at that time. Our roommates get up hours later.
It must have been an earthquake or a very realistic dream. I decided that If I felt anything more, I'd jump up. Nothing else happened, though. I wasn't feeling any aftershock. So, I did what every other seasoned Californian does during an earthquake in the middle of the night... I got a drink, made note of the time, rolled over, and went back to sleep.
The first thing I did when I woke up is check for earthquakes overnight and, sure enough, there was a 4.1 magnitude earthquake at Mount Palomar at 4:35am.
Edit: There was another 3.8 aftershock at 9:41am, but I did not feel this one. I am at work about 10 miles further south and didn't feel a thing this time.
War is Peacebuilding The German Green Party has held its federal party convention and has decided to no longer pursue pacifism and instead give approval to our military's invasions from now on. But being a party which wants to keep a humanitarian and eco-friendly public image, they don't say it that bluntly and instead prefer to hide behind the term peacebuilding. The war in Yugoslavia was the first deviation, the war in Afghanistan was to follow. The refusal to participate in the ongoing war in Iraq was an attempt to reestablish the old pacifist public image while serving crude, popular anti-American resentments among the populace. Later on, the Schröder administration eventually got replaced with the Merkel administration. Chancellor Merkel and her Warminister Jung didn't wait long to introduce the new White Paper which was to fully transform an army which was primarily designed to defend its territory into a globally acting invasion force. And now that our military has the same "liberties" as the armies of all other sovereign nations, the supposed Greens have decided to forsake pacifism.
I recently went out and bought a Nerf Recon CS-6 and a NRF 425 Blaster. I would have bought a Vulcan yesterday but Toys R Us had sold out in less than a week. I should have known that it would have been the more popular of the guns available. I bet they are all used in office wars - or went straight to eBay.
I'm also trying out my new Flickr account because I'm fed up with how rubbish PhotoBucket has become.
Computer format For any who wonder where I am, I'm about to format my computer as soon as one more thing finishes getting backed up. I've been using it constantly for a while, and my computer is starting to bog down a bit. I think this will help speed it up again.